*I write to feel better*
You and I are completely two different people. I’m ignorant, I don’t understand love, I don’t think much bout the future, I take life as it goes - planning for the future gives me headaches so I avoid it, I make decisions based on instincts and observation of this mad world and I spend more of my money than spending it. You on the other hand believe in love and love being in love, you’re gentle, you plan things, you’re careful, you make your decisions based on logic and what’s right and you believe in saving rather than spending. The only thing we have in common is being stubborn as being loyal to our individual beliefs.
Because of our difference, its hard for me to just listen to your words when I need opinions on some of my beliefs - I need more thoughts just to make myself sure. Its not a matter of not trusting you, but its a matter of knowing what’s right. And when I don’t agree with you it doesn’t mean that I don’t trust you nor does it mean that you’re wrong. It just means that we’re not on the same page. I’m sick and tired of going through the same argument with you when it comes to this. If you know me well, then this wouldn’t be an issue.
I’ve let my guards down for you. I’m learning what love is from you. I’ve been improving myself so that it suits your kindness. You’re a kind soul, but sometimes you make me feel low - you always pick on the worst of me. Just because I am how I am, doesn’t mean that you can assume how I would be months or years from now.
